First!

So, I decided to get a blogg! Guess it's time to get a life, otherwise there’ll never be anything interesting here…

But ah yes, fresh blog, fresh life! My first post, the tingling sensation throughout the body, the itching fingers, the exciting feeling flowing in my veins. Feeling a bit nervous, worried that someone is evaluating me and will put me down out of my cyber blogging misery.

It can be compared to only one thing! Losing your virginity! Though being compared with some of the old fantastic, interesting and heck, I’ll say it, awesome (get used to the word, I use it a lot) bloggers. Would be like losing your virginity to a cheap whore in the business for 40 years on a busy street in Stockholm! You will look like a failure, no matter size, durability, or looks.


Though, is the first post really that important? Must I put down a wall of text here, filling it out with a amazing history to catch the readers eye? Must I really struggle with this first post to put something down with meaning, value, and most importantly entertainment for whatever few readers I’ll actually get a hold of during this blogs life? Which will most likely not stretch longer then to close friends and family members reading it out of pity?

Then again, seeing as I do have quite a vulgar sense of humor, I might actually keep this secret from my family and further limit the reaches of my dear crowd…

But, maybe virginity should be my first topic. What is its importance? How do we value the first filthy act of our lives, our ritual of passage into “the grown-ups world”. And I guess, under what circumstances? I think that I'm about to pass a terrible threshold if I’d continue writing what I originally thought. Because not all of us I assume have the same experience, the same view on these things.

And as so many times before, and as it so many times will in the future. It all ends in confusion. Words, thoughts, meaning. How can I possibly sort it out! Maybe these "ramblings of (in)sanity” is just a tool for me to sort my mind out. I have some problems focusing, which is quite ironic, since I a few years back practiced on opening my mind! Seeing wider, thinking broader, understanding deeper. As I was a bit narrow minded I’d assume. Which has now ended up with a mind jumping off a bridges with open arms!

And then suddenly realizing the fall is fast and the rock I’m about to have my brain splattered out over is quite solid.

Ah well, time to snap out of it and shape the fuck up. Focus! *bash face in wall*

Earlier I meant to discuss virginity, that I really don't see the hype of it. Sex is sex, and that is my opinion. The first time won't be much more special then the second, or the third, or will it? Why make things more complicated than they already are. Besides, how many of us do really remember our first time?

Then again, I guess I wouldn't mind my first time to have been in a candle lit room with some pleasant music (Yes, I am a man, no I am not homosexual). But that would mean I can't really say it would be a waste of time. But I wouldn’t like it to be that way just because it’s the first time, that’s in my eyes completely pointless. I’d do it because it makes it romantic, or makes it feel nicer. ( Read partner gets touched and pleases you more)

What I’m trying to say I guess, is that, losing the virginity is a bit overrated. It’s a memory of something we want to remember and aye sure memories can be nice and cuddly and all that so we can fall back on them when we feel bad. But I’d rather remember fun and enjoyable sex, then trying to make the first time perfect. Because dear readers, it won’t ever.

I guess in that way it’s like a first blog post. Why make it something it’s not, it’s more important to have fun and enjoy yourself. And do your best and pray the other person doesn’t say you have a small “font” (Aye, you know what I mean). I can try and give this post special treatment, and work on it forever, but if I’m not doing it because I think It’s right, or because I enjoy it, I’ll lose interest sooner or later. And I’ll do it the way I want to do it. So why not start with that without the fuss or disappointment? And quickly get better!

After all, an entertainer never really comes in with a bang and lets the show die down after that? Of course not! He builds up tension and goes out with a bang! ( I just know some people will miss interpret this with all the sexual references in this text)

Ah well, should leave it there now. I guess my ranting have gone on long enough now, and I am dead tired. Wonder if i made any sense though....

AH WELL GOOD NIGHT


Oh and also, I'm fairly sure I'll try and get the position of bartender at a nearby pub, just for the hell of it! Wrote my application shortly before I started with the blog! And hey, meeting people is cool right?(Reserving the letter for posting on next brain-dead day!)

Much Love

-L